12 questions

-->Why do I feel as if I'm racing against time?

-->Have I been alone for the longest time?

-->Why do I cringe and turn green with envy everytime I see the men I have liked and loved happy with their respective wives and lovers?

-->Am I that evil for the reason that I don't rejoice on their good tidings rather I feel as if life is playing a sick joke on me?

-->Why can't I keep a straight face amongst all these trouble?

-->Am I cursed to be bitter forever?

-->Am I not deserving to experience bliss and contentment with a man who can claim me as his?

-->Have I not done anything good or great that would merit a good karma?

-->Will I have to wilt and die before I reap what I deserve?

-->Do I have to exert more effort just for things to go the way I want them to?

-->Or do I have to again let the tide wash me to some unknown territory just so I could start over?

-->Could I be more pathetic or can anyone just shoot me?