Jerk and a Half

Yes, I've finally thrown in the towel yesterday.

I said to myself, 'It's time to let go.'

It's hard to make someone see you as you are. It's even harder to make someone realize that you're worth more than you are.

I'm giving up on you now. You're not treating me the way I should be treated and I'm effin' tired to make excuses for your actions. It only frustrates me.

I know we look good together. We would've been great as a couple. I imagine how good we will fit each other but it just won't work coz you won't participate or exert enough effort to make a relationship possible.

And I can't make you see it. You hafta realize it for yourself, dear. And I don't wanna stick around and wait for you to grow up.

I know this decision will be hard to back up. Although I would still want to work things out..I'm afraid I'll end up worse than when I've started. I know this is the first step, finally putting my foot down and move on.

If it's only that easy to knock some sense into your head than I would've done it a long time ago. 6 months..It has been a rollercoaster ride..for the second time.

There were a lot of things I now regret but hey, it already happened. I can't do anything about it.

I'm letting you go now. I wish you all the best in life, your work and I hope you don't feel sad once you're up there coz you've no one to share your success with.

I don't know if I'd still be here. Only time can tell.

As of now, I'll pick up the pieces..reminisce about the old times and try to smile whenever I think of you.

Take care my Jerk-and-a-Half.

A Birthday & a Wedding after a Funeral

Well, my birthday for this year was okay.

I was able to meet up with friends from previous job and some back in college. It was refreshing coz my last year's bday was spent with colleagues. It was a fun birthday except for the groping part by my would-be suitor and GT becoming my Greatest Frustration by far.

He was too busy..too busy to realize that I needed some special treatment during my big day.
*sighs
Makes me want to throw my hands in the air and call it quits. I truly deserve someone better.

My colleague's wedding last Friday was a blast. Almost all of us hardly had any sleep but we all showed up all for the love of Jules. (Congrats, dude!)

It was strictly formal and we had to show up in really swanky dresses and barong for the guys. The highlight of the evening was when I 'caught' the bouquet! Hahaha! It was hilarious and ten times embarrassing.

Should I consider it as a sign of wedding bells comin' my way?

Nah, I've to find me a fool to marry first!