December vacay

I finally got my plane tickets after a gruelling couple of weeks tormenting HR to get the money to book the tix. I flipped when they asked me to pay for the tix first then get it reimbursed. No way I'm goin to wait forever to get my money reimbursed.

So anyway, I'll be going home on the 2nd week of December til the 3rd. I'm hoping this time I get to see more friends than my 2-day trip last January.

Here are a few things I'll need to adjust to once I'm back in the PI:
- Ima need to learn how to shut up when I want to make okray. Here kase pede ka mang okray kahit kaharap mo na yung Intsik..di ka kase nila maintindihan if we speak Tagalog! One of the perks when living in another country.
- Ima need to re-learn how to be cautious when it comes to my belongings. Here kase I feel safe. No metal detectors on mall entrances, police stations are stationed everywhere, and the cabs are comfortable and the taxi drivers can understand my Chinese directions.
- Ima need to learn how to cross the streets properly. Jaywalking is normal here in Beijing, I just hafta be wary of motorists and those on bikes not following traffic signs as well. =/
- I don't hafta always look down when I'm walking. It's only in Beijing that the streets are riddled with spits and hawking locals trying to get rid of excess "laways" because it's supposedly "bad for their health if they don't let it out". Double grossness.

In the end, I'm stoked that I'll be vacationing at home. I get to eat my fave dishes, visit my fave restos and be with my fave friends.

Can't wait!

I miss home

It's true what they say that you'll only miss something when it's already gone.

Or in my case, I only miss my family when i'm far from them. I've worked so hard to finally be independent and be able to move away from home. For the first time since I've been away from them..I am genuinely missing home.

I chatted with my dad tonight. We were just catching up on what's happening at home and on mine when he all of a sudden said something about him missing our kakulitan when we were kids..

I just realized how much my family misses me. How they always worry about what I eat here..how I'm coping up with being alone in a different country. Nabigla ako..I found myself crying. Because I don't think of them that much. I know, ang sama ko. Weird because I never thought or missed my family or my dad in particular ng ganitong katindi.

I've always been a daddy's girl. Anything that concerns him, I'm super sensitive and I always end up crying. Although I don't let them see me cry. I'd like them all to think I'm this strong person. But deep inside, I wanna provide everything that my family needs. Kahit na sometimes sobrang reklamo na ko, I'll always find a way to be able to help them.

I do love my family after all. Ang hirap ma realize un tapos andito ako sa malayo. Iyak na lang ako.